After the hospital, I was at a nursing facility for about 2.5 weeks, they were administering IV antibiotics for the infection from the appendix and took good care of me, best they could. I’m home now and recovering. The cancer was confirmed as Endometrial cancer, and possibly a second type as well, they’re waiting for a second opinion. Chemo starts in December.
Not really sure what else to say.
Mostly I’m freaking about money, and I’ll worry about the chemo when we get there. I should add pretty headscarves to my amazon list, I guess.
Also I had a reaction to one of the antibiotics while at the nursing facility and I was covered with a rash for like four days and it’s healing but now all my skin is peeling like I had a sunburn and it’s making me crazy.
Since some people have asked, I started a “F*ck Cancer” wishlist of stuff I am probably going to need or want during chemo. My Venmo is @Maleficently Do with it what you will. Please don’t feel obligated to spend money on me tho!
General Update as of Dec 9th: I had a CT scan last weekend, and Friday was the follow up appointment with my ObGyn/Oncologist. The CT scan came back good, everything is healing very well, will be getting the DVT filter out soonish. Chemo starts first week of January. I come back to work as of wed night I think, have some modifications (Mostly just stuff that allows me to bypass policy like being allowed to wear headscarves and bring my walker to work, etc) but otherwise good to go. Secondary possible cancer was a false positive so it’s only the endometrial which responds well to the chemo they have planned. Dr is very pleased with progress. It was overall a very good appointment, very positive going forward. Really do like this doctor, wish desperately she could also be my primary. I still need a new one of those.
I want to thank everyone who has sent me things from my wishlist, it’s been a very bright spot the last few weeks when I get a surprise package and I get to put it in my little box of “For when I start the scary Chemo” stuff. :)
One more chemo session to go. I haven’t been posting much because I’m also working through chemo so most of the time, I’m just exhausted.
Chemotherapy has been an… experience. Not as bad as what some people experience for sure, but the neuropathy set in almost right away, and the constant exhaustion is, well, exhausting. I’ve been very lucky in that work has been very generous with their accommodations (or else I’m just not asking for as much as it feels like I am?) . Good thing too because my money situation is… getting dire. Has already been dire, but I’m scraping by. Mostly. I haven’t QUITE got to the point where I have to choose things like food versus paying a bill but I’ve definitely been paying said bills much later than I prefer. The stress from that is frankly, more stressful than the damn cancer is right now. I’ve seriously considered starting the dreaded GoFund me or donation thread on Reddit at this point. I don’t know what else to do.
I had just about got to the point where I was looking forward to the end of chemo when my oncologist slammed me back to reality reminding me that this type of cancer can and WILL return, so we have to start talking about ‘maintenance’ care for afterwards, assuming my CT scan comes back clear after my last treatment.
It’s thrown me for a loop, because once again, I am reminded that I am going to be FUCKED and this is likely NOT my last round of chemo. In fact, it is probably the first of many, depending on how long I continue to choose to seek treatment.
God, I’m so tired.
There is zero obligation to do so, but if you happen to have $ to spare, linkage is here: Ko-Fi | Venmo | Paypal
Hey. Why isn’t the moon landing a national holiday in the US. Isn’t that fucked up? Does anyone else think that’s absurd?
It was a huge milestone of scientific and technological advancement. (Plus, at the time, politically significant). Humanity went to space! We set foot on a celestial body that was not earth for the first time in human history! That’s a big deal! I’ve never thought about it before but now that I have, it’s ridiculous to me that that’s not part of our everyday lives and the public consciousness anymore. Why don’t we have a public holiday and a family barbecue about it. Why have I never seen the original broadcast of the moon landing? It should be all over the news every year!
It’s July 20th. That’s the day of the moon landing. Next year is going to be the 54th anniversary. I’m ordering astronaut shaped cookie cutters on Etsy and I’m going to have a goddamn potluck. You’re all invited.
Hey. Hey. Tumblr. Ides of March ppl. We can do this
This is a scheduled post for two days before the anniversary of the moon landing. Please get your moon themed items and foods sorted now in anticipation.
i think kids online should really get back to making internetsonas instead of whatever fuckshit this is with putting their entire real faces, names, ages, and such everywhere. you’re not gonna realize how nice internet privacy is until you dont have it anymore and no chance at getting it back. make up a guy and a name and just be that online. make up conflicting details about your completely made up backstory. make a fursona or something
i saw people talking about this on THIS website, saying how it was Suspicious if you didn’t have your ostensibly real name and info on your account like. NO THAT IS WHAT IT IS FOR. be safe!! be a made up wizard!! (and sure as hell be someone your job/parents/school/we won’t find) this isn’t faced book. also, i really hate to break it to you, but that person who has full name and info on their acc ……… could also be making it up
Friendly reminder that Hozier’s first music video, in 2013, involved him literally taking his life savings and using it to make a protest video about anti-gay actions in Chechnya. This was not a popular position at the time, to the point that damn near every interviewer asked “so, are you gay?” because they literally could not figure out why he cared so much.
Incidentally, after the first few times of saying “no, I’m straight but it’s important,” he started saying “you can think that if you want.” ALSO not a popular position at the time. Adam Lambert’s entire career had been derailed only four years before because he dared to be openly gay and sexual about it.
He literally came out swinging like Muhammad Ali and hasnot stopped. And he finds it odd that people find it odd! Like he was asked if he was aware of his “lesbian cult following” and seemed genuinely puzzled why he has a lesbian cult following (and, later, just a massive queer following in general) and it’s like. Honey. You loved us first. You loved us more and harder than most people were willing to. When it was unpopular to even whisper about how maybe queer people shouldn’t be seen as inhuman actually, you grabbed a megaphone and screamed. You risked not just losing a career, but never having one at all, to stand by us. You loved us. We’re just loving you back.
every time this post comes around, my favorite part is the “I know it’s the Mets” qualifier at the beginning lmao like how baseball that this zillion note posts starts with “sorry for putting this hellteam on your dash, bUT”
Y’all have no idea how hard I was trying not to laugh in class at that poor bird
They…they just blew up a fucking bird…
Ball’s dead. Bird’s dead. I’m dead
World Heritage Post
personally my favorite thing about Mr. Bird Evaporator is this
imagine being the poor fool tryna rob this man’s house only to be instantly transported to the same dimension as that bird
He does photography now, and I guess just in case you’re booking him wondering “is it that Randy Johnson?” … here’s his logo:
All your favorite things that you’ve been watching for years, and you know those actors that you go, “Oh, there’s that guy on that show.” You may not necessarily know their names—you may see me on a show, you may not know my name, but you’ve seen me on a lot of things. Those actors, those actors are working-class actors. We’re literally working paycheck-to-paycheck.
It takes $26,000 to qualify for your health insurance for SAG-AFTRA. A guest star on a show, producers will do top-of-show—this is a verbiage that they created, it’s not in our contracts, it’s what they created—so they’re not gonna budge above whatever their top-of-show is. Top-of-show, generally, could be anywhere from $5,000 to $7 or $8,000 an episode. Maybe that sounds great. So say I cobble together 2 or 3 guest stars during a year. People, our audiences, sees me on 3 or 4 different shows, and they’re like, “Wow, that actress is working, she’s doing all this stuff.” I still, by doing that with top-of-show, I have still not qualified for my health insurance. We literally are going paycheck to paycheck.
Back in the day, we used to have quotes. That once you’ve been working for a certain amount of time, you’re working really hard to get your quote up, to get your salary up. They decided to get rid of that, so they no longer acknowledge or respect that. This industry is one of the few industries that seniority, that being in this industry for a long time, that gathering up an amazing resume, doesn’t mean anything to them.
Yes, there is some very wealthy actors. Absolutely. There’s 160,000 members in our union. 160,000. 1% are the top grossers. 1%. And of that, maybe 2% are the ones that literally support and uplift our union, and keep the insurance going. Everybody else is below the line.
People don’t realize that SAG-AFTRA is not just actors. We’re broadcasters, we’re stunt coordinators, stunt workers. We’re dancers and singers and voiceover artists. There’s a huge umbrella that we encompass, and 98% of those people are below the line? Are struggling to make a living? In an industry that we all know is making billions?
I think about this all the time, we talk about this in our caucuses. Back in the day, we used to talk about millions, everybody wanted to make millions, and oh wouldn’t that be amazing. These people are making billions, and yet they don’t have money to give us just a scooch more? To contribute to our pension and health? To allow us to qualify for our health insurance?
We have actors that you all will recognize. You will know us from that guy on that show that have lost their insurance, no longer qualify, and are hustling just to get a day on a job to just pay their rent. Not even their insurance, their rent.
This is a serious, crucial moment. This sounds hyperbolic or whatever, but it is a life-or-death situation. Because we’re talking about, you know, taking care of our families. Taking care of our loved ones, you know, our parents, if they’re getting older. You always, as a child, you want to be able to contribute. Should I be at this age, still asking my parents for money? No. I should be taking care of my parents. It’s painful.
big fan of characters with abandonment + attachment issues so profound that they leave claw marks in everything they touch but would sooner gnaw off their own leg than admit they just want someone to stay for once. in a totally normal well adjusted and not at all projecting way of course.
Folks announcing they’re leaving Tumblr because they’re unhappy with the Twitter clone dashboard on desktop. (I don’t blame you, it’s broken af.) Meanwhile, the day this hellsite finally does close, staff are going to have to pry me out of the air vents like a rabid raccoon that’s adapted to survive on drinking air conditioning coolant and whatever trash is left lying around in the breakroom.
